In December we're moving into a new apartment. It may be in the same building and just two levels up but it's a chance to decorate a larger space. And it's also one step closer to being able to design a new space...one day. I can barely wait to get in and start. There will be colour, pattern, images, sound, lighting, storage and house plants. It's own show really. And there will never be a shortage of reading material. Ever. That I can promise.
Oct 23, 2012
Oct 20, 2012
All used up, emptied out and pummelled down. The hunger was lost somewhere. Somewhere in the repetition. With days gone and days approaching. There was nothing to it. Opting-out threadbare and bare-boned. The make-up stung her eyes. Craving the empowerment of movement and the rush of air against her skin. The sensation. There is no place hold, no replacement. She tried and she failed. And what's to say it wasn't a mistake. It's unclear, fuzzy even. Not the comedy you'd expect, this must be a tragedy. People don't write songs when everything's fine, do they? What's the fun in that. Rhetorical question. There's a need and it gets met.
“I actually attack the concept of happiness. The idea that - I don’t mind people being happy - but the idea that everything we do is part of the pursuit of happiness seems to me a really dangerous idea and has led to a contemporary disease in Western society, which is fear of sadness. It’s a really odd thing that we’re now seeing people saying “write down 3 things that made you happy today before you go to sleep”, and “cheer up” and “happiness is our birthright” and so on. We’re kind of teaching our kids that happiness is the default position - it’s rubbish. Wholeness is what we ought to be striving for and part of that is sadness, disappointment, frustration, failure; all of those things which make us who we are. Happiness and victory and fulfilment are nice little things that also happen to us, but they don’t teach us much. Everyone says we grow through pain and then as soon as they experience pain they say “Quick! Move on! Cheer up!” I’d like just for a year to have a moratorium on the word “happiness” and to replace it with the word “wholeness”. Ask yourself “is this contributing to my wholeness?” and if you’re having a bad day, it is.”
― Hugh Mackay